Be naked to someone physically seems not too hard

but be naked mentally it is hardly easy

I am full of apprecitation, whenever I have burstout moments without fear, and naked feeling without doubts…

The worst thing is not because we are apart, or because the city will be so strange without you. Of course those feeling of missing or strange will fade away after a while.

But there is one will never fade away - ‘us in this lifetime’. That is a fact, not a feeling to be faded. We might forget that, we might not care about that anymore. Yet whenever we have a moment to recall those memory, during that year of 2019 - 2020, when we were 24 and 26, when we were here in this city, in this country, and saw each other… 

That would be a moment of smile, and a void of nostalgia about ‘the good old days’. I realise, sometimes, old days are not always good. But we always feel ‘good old days’ when a memory comes to us. It only stays alive in our mind, it is already gone in real. 

People keeps changing. Yesterday keeps being further and further. The day you move out of the city, we might think about it as a near future when I am writing these words. Or you will think about it as ‘tomorrow’ on the day before the flight. Or just ‘yesterday’ when you landed India… 

However, it is that moment we are done with the ‘why’ we meet each other in this lifetime.

We are ‘done’! 

We might continue be friends, or not when our life are too different. We might see each other in a rare occasion in the future somewhere, or not. We might, also, never see each other again… in this life or any other life. Wow, thinking about ‘last’ this and ‘last’ that is fucked, but dammmm true. 

In this moment, I just feel things keeps going so fast, so vague, and I am scared of those last days we are together, cook together, walk together, laugh together, and be here together….Just after this point of time, we are not as we are now….we step out of others’ life…

we will have different thing to care about

we are different 

we forget

we …

you and me

wow…do you get what i am thinking about? 

of us

on our first date

That was on 28 Dec 2019, because the photo was taken on that date. :D 

Wow I would never thought we will make it until today. Ah, and today is 28 March =)) which means it has been already three months now. 

Continue to see how it will be for both of us, because the ‘us’ tmr, might be different…

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by Lumi Tuomi

Ah today is in the middle of the quarantine. and there are some moredays til i can meet my pretty juicy boy. Hope that he will not forget me.

But even if he forgets me, I am full prepared for that because I see thorough that he has his own life, I have my own life. I will choose to stay next to people who wants me and who I can feel safe around mentally and physically.

For now I think I bet this on Juicy. but for tomorrow, who knows…people change and it is a normal thing

I just keep in mind that: to be together is difficult, is a challenge that I wanna figure out. To separate, it is always an easier option to choose ;) so I’ll try everyday to make me better, for me. Hope you also try for yourself. When we see we are both better versions and motivation for eachother, that’s a reason why we are still here together. of course there are many more reasons but at least, I simplify that ;))

p/s: I think i start to miss you abit. But it is ok, acceptable haha

The whole day today I feel so strange, I really don’t know what is that so I write it down here. When time goes by I can look back and understand what were happening at this time that I don’t know.

The sense of mine, I treasure it, but sometimes it is a bit troublemaker because it made me feel worried for nothing at all hahaa